My life

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo look she loves it! i look possesed in this pic

she was smiling at her bouncy seat in this one

us gals!

daddys sweet pea... yeah for now, after her surgery she'll have way more energy and a lot more crying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's ok though :)

awwwwwwwwwwwwww go ahead i know you're saying it

the cute but only up to 5 lb. outfit ava got to wear once. (my mom just HAD to get it)

grandmommy and gracie

had to get a pic with the mittens

ava and her doo-rag uncle phillip got her

look at my slippers

eric and aryssa making cheesecake

this is babys r us's "newborn" it would fit a 3 month old!

lookin a little rough....

Hey everyone! It's been a while since I've wrote, havent really been in a blog writing mood. Im still not but decided I better give everyone an update and share some pictures before my grandma gets on my bu-tay again. Ava got her first big girl bath this weekend. Normally we just give her one in her bed, but we actually took her tub in this time. At first she let out like a ten second cry/whine, then once she realized hey i'm not cold, i kinda like this thing, she calmed down. She looked up at Eric and gave the biggest grin I've seen yet. Of course him being a man didn't have the camera ready therefore no picture. Go figure.... men, sigh sigh. She smiled her first real smile and cooed at me (all at the same time) last week. I have the date written down but it's upstairs. I did get a picture of her half smiling. I put her in her ghetto fabulous bouncy seat and when the fish started moving or whatever you want to call it (it kind of makes this sick cat noise and kind of turns a bit) But of course I got the picture because us moms think of that kind of thing, we always have a camera right there at the most perfect moments, lol. I didnt get to spend as much time as I usually do with Ava this Sat. Me and a friend of mine had a garage sell. It went sorta ok. Actually it really wasnt all that great. Friday night we went and put out our beautiful PINK signs. We couldnt get one of the stakes in the ground so we had Eric do it. Well guess where he put it? Go ahead guess. He put it where nobody could see it. Nobody driving on the road would have seen that sign with bincoulars much less just passing by. It was facing the total wrong direction. Possibly people leaving the edition may have seen it but I'm pretty sure the only people or things that saw it were the ducks as they were leaving the pond. Again... guys, sigh sigh. Dawson decided he wanted this second chicken pox shot he needs to get into the nicu. I think he's realized that it's going to be a while before the baby gets to come home. Iwas hoping he would be able to see her before her heart surgery but it's looking like he's not. The cardiologist and heart surgeon got together today and talked. Ava's on the max dose of heart meds that she can be on and it's really not doing any good. It's controlling the congestive heart failure a bit but she's not really gaining weight like she should and she's using a lot of energy eating, crying, etc... you know all the norm baby stuff. He said even if we waited a few more weeks and got her bigger it wouldnt make a difference. She's not putting on that much weight to where it would matter. He seems pretty confident about the surgery and her recovery. He thinks it would be more of a risk to bring her home on the feeding tube and wait vs doing it now. So this week it is. Were not totally sure on the date and time yet, but it's prob going to be Wed. If not Wed. then Fri. for sure. I'll let everyone know how it goes. Well most of you will prob be up there at some time or other. Well other then Christy. Her "babys daddy" won't watch her kids so she can come up... like ever, but that's another story. (no Im not bitter) Anyway they will move her to the picu the night before and she'll stay there in her big girl room for her recovery time. (Prob around a week) Good news is I can stay there in the room with her!!! That makes me happy. It will be our first over-nighter together!!!! I won't be able to hold her and she'll be pretty knocked out on pain meds, but I'll at least get to be with her this time. After she's made a fabulous recovery they'll take her back over to the nicu, they'll work on her feedings, then she'll get to come home!!!! I can't wait :) Nothing else is really going on right now. No new news on the other kids. Dawson's doing great in school though. Keeps getting A's on his spelling tests, yipeeee! He gets a new guitar if he gets all a's and b's... he's trying!!! He got a new m&m game today, he's pretty excited about that. His mamaw got him a nintendo ds for his birthday, so that's his new fave thing right now. Aryssa was at her moms this weekend so no new updates on her really. She did get to slather the baby in kisses with me today though, that was fun :) Slather, is that the right word? HMMMMM looks funny. My grandma leaves for Cali this weekend. I'm a bit jealous!!!!! I want to go. If Ava wasn't sick I'd sneak in her suitcase. Maybe next winter we can make a trip down there!!! Erics birthdays coming up. Sept 11th. Everyone wish him happy birthday. He's getting old. The big 31. I think he's going threw a mid life crisis. He now gets up in the morning and runs then in the evenings goes and works out. I wish I had that kind of energy. I'm beginning to realize I'm a lot older than I was with my last baby and this little bit of extra flab on my belly and thighs isn't going to just walk itself off. Darn it! I had Eric put some music on his "zuma" for me so I can start getting pumped before my walk/run/mostly walk routine. I call it a routine but I've yet to start it. It's nice to dream isn't it? BTW just kidding it's the 12th.

a little big...

our photoshoot

she has every reason to be a unhappy baby but she's the most happiest content baby ever.

Ava and her matching dolly

so pretty

alright mom enoughs enough, i'm starting to fall asleep now

Hows everyone doing? Me and Ava had our first photoshoot today. The nurses hands were used as the little thing they sit the babys against at the picture place. Well I got about fifty pictures today and would have gotten more but Ava didnt love it so much. She started spitting and have reflex quite a bit. I guess it didnt help that we were moving her around as she was being fed. She l iked it though, she's going to be a natural I just know it :) So all the pics I post in the yellow outfit are from today. 6 weeks can you believe it?

I had my lovely no more babies for 5 years doctor appt today. I had that IUD thing put in. It hurt like HECK!!!! Clark warned me it may hurt. He had to put some thing in to pinch my cervix before he could put the mirena in. Of course not everyone has to have that done... I think the doc just wanted to pinch my cervix, hehe. Oh and I did finally get a picture of him. I'll post it!

and the moment you've all been waiting for....

Ava's doing well, about the same. She has surgery tomorrow to dilate her esophogus. Right now it's the size of her feeding tube, so that explains a lot of her feeding issues. They will prob have to go in and dilate a few times but in the mean time will prob put a g tube in. Fine with me, that means she can come home!!!!!!! I can't wait!!!! The surgerys tomorrow at noon. I know its not heart surgery but its still surgery and I'm scared to death. I wish I could just take it all from her and go threw it myself. Dawson just wrote me a note, a reminder actually. It's pretty funny. You see ever since I've had Ava I've also lost brain cells. Like a lot of them. Not just a few, a lot!!! This is the third time this week that Ive forgotten to take the movie back and get a new one. I sit it right next to me, or in todays case, in my lap, and still forget!!! Now on to Dawsons note... Go print a picture for my project. Go get those pen things. Thanks love you. And at the end it says to mom from dawson. He he. Little things like that make all the whineing and tattling worth while :) BTW by pen things he means push pins, tacs, whatever, for his cork board Christa got him a month ago. I just keep forgetting! Aryssa just had a horrible night poor baby. Me and her daddy made her eat a whole three (ended up being two) pieces of chicken. Cut up chicken not like a nugget or finger. Tender really yummy chicken that she just could not chew up. It came to a point where she was hysterically crying for twenty min. You know all that saliva buildup had deteriated that chicken but she still wouldnt swallow it. Finally (before she choked!) Eric made her spit it out then gave her a little spanking (love tap) on the butt. Here comes the tears! When she crys she crys (such a girl) she sniffles when she's done for about an hour, no joke. It's the cutest thing though. SOoooooooooo funny. You feel so bad for her (well sometimes) but you can't help but laugh. Anyway she knows how to play her dad, I'm pretty sure I heard her eating a piece or a bite of cake in the kitchen a few minutes ago. lol. Well he just shut all of the windows and since he didnt turn the air on today it's about 100 degrees in here. Therefore I'm going to take my butt upstairs. I'll post some pictres and give a update after her surgery.