ava's first photo shoot :)

our photoshoot

she has every reason to be a unhappy baby but she's the most happiest content baby ever.

Ava and her matching dolly

so pretty alright mom enoughs enough, i'm starting to fall asleep now

Hows everyone doing? Me and Ava had our first photoshoot today. The nurses hands were used as the little thing they sit the babys against at the picture place. Well I got about fifty pictures today and would have gotten more but Ava didnt love it so much. She started spitting and have reflex quite a bit. I guess it didnt help that we were moving her around as she was being fed. She l iked it though, she's going to be a natural I just know it :) So all the pics I post in the yellow outfit are from today. 6 weeks can you believe it?

I had my lovely no more babies for 5 years doctor appt today. I had that IUD thing put in. It hurt like HECK!!!! Clark warned me it may hurt. He had to put some thing in to pinch my cervix before he could put the mirena in. Of course not everyone has to have that done... I think the doc just wanted to pinch my cervix, hehe. Oh and I did finally get a picture of him. I'll post it!

and the moment you've all been waiting for....

Ava's doing well, about the same. She has surgery tomorrow to dilate her esophogus. Right now it's the size of her feeding tube, so that explains a lot of her feeding issues. They will prob have to go in and dilate a few times but in the mean time will prob put a g tube in. Fine with me, that means she can come home!!!!!!! I can't wait!!!! The surgerys tomorrow at noon. I know its not heart surgery but its still surgery and I'm scared to death. I wish I could just take it all from her and go threw it myself. Dawson just wrote me a note, a reminder actually. It's pretty funny. You see ever since I've had Ava I've also lost brain cells. Like a lot of them. Not just a few, a lot!!! This is the third time this week that Ive forgotten to take the movie back and get a new one. I sit it right next to me, or in todays case, in my lap, and still forget!!! Now on to Dawsons note... Go print a picture for my project. Go get those pen things. Thanks love you. And at the end it says to mom from dawson. He he. Little things like that make all the whineing and tattling worth while :) BTW by pen things he means push pins, tacs, whatever, for his cork board Christa got him a month ago. I just keep forgetting! Aryssa just had a horrible night poor baby. Me and her daddy made her eat a whole three (ended up being two) pieces of chicken. Cut up chicken not like a nugget or finger. Tender really yummy chicken that she just could not chew up. It came to a point where she was hysterically crying for twenty min. You know all that saliva buildup had deteriated that chicken but she still wouldnt swallow it. Finally (before she choked!) Eric made her spit it out then gave her a little spanking (love tap) on the butt. Here comes the tears! When she crys she crys (such a girl) she sniffles when she's done for about an hour, no joke. It's the cutest thing though. SOoooooooooo funny. You feel so bad for her (well sometimes) but you can't help but laugh. Anyway she knows how to play her dad, I'm pretty sure I heard her eating a piece or a bite of cake in the kitchen a few minutes ago. lol. Well he just shut all of the windows and since he didnt turn the air on today it's about 100 degrees in here. Therefore I'm going to take my butt upstairs. I'll post some pictres and give a update after her surgery.

her dad does this same thing with his eye. so does her uncle phillip!!!

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh we're sleeping ava and aunt barbara
one of my fave outfits (thanks christa :) ava's going to miss you grammy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hurry back :) night night everyone..........xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxox

I miss my little angel :(

aunt elizabeth and little ms ava jae
look at my babys skullet, hehehehe
aryssa and her cutie pie cousin
sweet dreams my angel

aryssa and emily

he was tired!!!! another black mail pic :)
my pretty baby girl
xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxxo
ava and mamaw
cousin love :)

So we got a visit from the cardiologist this week. The hole in Ava's heart is a lot bigger than what they initally thought. That means sooner surgery. After talking to the surgeon... they decided to try and get her to grow faster which prob means g-tube. Which means she'll be able to come home for a bit before her heart surgery :) Tomorrow the surgeon that did the surgery on her esophogus and stomach comes back from vaca and will finally do another swallow study. It will be up to him to decide if he wants to do a g-tube or give her more time to eat. I'm just ready for my baby to come home, even if it is just for a little while. I wake up a few times a night thinking I hear her crying and then remembering oh yeah she's still at the hospital. Or I have these weird random dreams that I forgot to wake up and feed her... but she's not here... If she does get the g-tube she'll be in there another couple of weeks and then will be able to come home. If she's gaining weight like she should theyll wait a couple months to do her surgery. The bigger the baby the less risk!!!! If she doesnt gain they'll have to do it sooner. She's already showing signs of congestive heart failure which scares the heck out of me, but we know the signs to look for at home, plus she's on two medicines. She's a trooper. My strong girl!!! On that note I got the sweetest message from some random girl on myspace today. It brought tears to my eyes knowing that a stranger my family doesnt even know took the time out to message me to let me know she would pray for my baby girl. So sweet. Prayer really does miracles!!!

JUST SOME LYRICS :) I NEVER GAVE THIS SONG MUCH THOUGHT TILL NOW, I GET TEARY EYED EVERY TIME I HEAR IT...

In my daughter's eyes I am a heroI am strong and wise and I know no fearBut the truth is plain to seeShe was sent to rescue meI see who I wanna beIn my daughter's eyesIn my daughter's eyes everyone is equalDarkness turns to light and theworld is at peaceThis miracle God gave to me gives mestrength when I am weakI find reason to believe In my daughter's eyesAnd when she wraps her handaround my fingerOh it puts a smile in my heartEverything becomes a little clearerI realize what life is all aboutIt's hangin' on when your hearthas had enoughIt's giving more when you feel like giving upI've seen the lightIt's in my daughter's eyesIn my daughter's eyes I can see the futureA reflection of who I am and what will beThough she'll grow and someday leaveMaybe raise a familyWhen I'm gone I hope you see how happyshe made meFor I'll be thereIn my daughter's eyes

she knows she's cute :)

FIRSTS

she likes her bouncy seat, i think she just loves tha sit up posistion

i got it mom i got it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cutie pa-tootie!

her face without tape, she pulled her feeding tube out sat night
my babys scars
hand on the face...again...she's already always posing
we took her mobile in so she could have a piece of home with her

Sooooo how's everyone? I'm good, kinda tired and a bit wore out but good. Not sure why I'm tired, I literally sit at the hospital all day but I'm tired. It's prob because I'm pregnant again. Just Kidding! Got ya mom didn't I? No more babies for me well not anytime in the near future that is. I go see Clark next week for the good ol' pap. (ugh i hate those big tong opener thingys!) The following week I get my 5 year birth control, uti is it? You would think I knew these things, but then again I did get pregnant didn't I. HA! Just kidding again :) (kinda)She' Good thing is I get to see the hot doc one more time before my yearlys... he's going to miss me I just know it! So Ava's about the same. She did start showing signs of congestive heart failure a couple days ago. The dr's put her on some meds and are keeping an eye on it. If she stays the same or gets worse they'll move her heart surgery up. The doctors are going to start talking G-tube to us prob by the end of the week. If she starts showing that she can eat more they'll hold off, but it's not looking like it. With her heart condition it wears her out and makes her sleepy so she can't eat enough. After her heart surgery that should all change. She'll be a lot stronger and won't get tired quite so fast. My poor baby. She's going threw more than what most of us go threw in a life time and it breaks my heart!!! She's strong and won't remember any of it I know. Plus she's prob going to be a tom-boy (since I'm so into her shopping and loving girly stuff) so she'll have "some cool scars" to show her friends. I'll know more by the beginning of next week as far as the g tube goes. Her aunt and uncle are coming up this weekend. YAY! They get to see baby Ava for the FIRST time. I get to see Elizabeths belly for the FIRST time!!! I bet it's a girl. Sorry Phil and Diane you guys just aren't going to get any boys anytime soon ;) Maybe when Phillip has kids... He'll be your boy producer! Ava discovered her thumb for the FIRST time Monday. Possibly the cutest thing EVER! I got some video of her trying today, I'll try to load it for everyone to see. My mom bought her a bouncy seat, which she loves. I took a pic of it so everyone could see how tiny she really is. For some reason she looks like a giant in every picture I take??? Ralph took Eric, Dawson, Aryssa, and I to Ruth Chris today. It was my FIRST time eating there, the steak was really good but I think I like St Elmos better. Maybe that's why I'm tired, eating all that food can wear you out! Aryssa really enjoyed the womens bathrooms, yes I got a picture. I got some dessert that I better hurry and get to. Eric didn't get any and ten bucks says he's downstairs eating it ;) Oh and last but not least Dawson started school Monday. He likes it so far, yipeeeeeeee! He's also been playing with the little girl across the street, I think he has his first crush, whooo hoooo. Nobody say anything to him though he'll get embarrassed and won't play with her anymore. OHHHHHH and BIG news, we had to break the news to him that Santa is fake. Along with the easter bunny, tooth fairy, etc.... lol. I thought he was going to be devastated so I made grandmommy do it. He did good with it though, a lot better than I expected. OK well I better go eat my banana stuff before it's all gone. P.S. I buttoned another pair of jeans today. Lifes getting better and better everyday :)

dawsons first day of school isn't he a handsome little thing?!

i love my kisses! grandmommys favorite ;) hehehehe and grammys.... well besides me of course ;) wink wink
aryssa posing in the "cool bathrooms"video of ava trying to get her thumb